godsaidnoto_tom

godsaidnoto_tom @ 2005-12-10T18:11:00

2005-12-10T23:14:00Z

WOW. Shit for me keeps changing like everyday. One day things are awesome and the next everything is horrible. Sometimes its even half of the day is good and the other isnt. Like today.

I regret what I did today.

I regret what i have been doing these past few days.

Ahh well... things are always changing and I guess ill just deal with it as it comes. :/

Sorry.

<3 Peace.

godsaidnoto_tom @ 2005-11-14T09:17:00

2005-11-14T14:18:31Z

I see the scars of your addiction and the feeling you hide. A blackened heart from all the hatred you will never rewind. Within the depths of your depression hear you pleading for help. Your just a shell of vacant ruin, a portrait of myself.

if ya need something ta read

2005-11-12T08:24:17Z

A is for - Age: 17
B is for - Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Single
C is for - Career in Future: ?
D is for - Dead person you would like to meet: My grandpa (moms side)
E is for - Essential item: ?
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: Pink Floyd- Wish you were here
G is for - Girls you've kissed: 0
H is for - Hometown: Berkley
I is for - Instruments you play: none
J is for - Job title: car hop
K is for - Kicks Ass: my best friends (val, jon, chris, stacy)
L is for - Living places: wtf?
M is for - Most memorable moment of today: james tickling me
N is for - Number of people you've slept with: 2
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: when i was three i stayed for awhile for mouth surgery
P is for - Phobias: trains and leprechauns
Q is for - Quote you like:
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: with james, on and off for 4 years
S is for - Sexuality: straight
T is for - Time you wake up everyday am: its normally not am, its more like 2 pm
U is for - Unique trait(s): i dont know
V is for - Vegetable you love: umm... none?
W is for - Worst habit: i complain a lot
X is for - X-rays you've had: wayyyyy too many
Y is for - Yummy food you make: grilled cheese
Z is for - Zodiac sign: cancer

10 Firsts:
First Best Friend: Jessica Dietz
First Screen Name: VipersJJ
First Piercing: Ears
First Crush: Paul
First Music: 70's rock
First Car: 90 something chevy lumina
First love: James
First stuffed animal: grey bunny
First Time Being Drunk: when i was little, my parents gave me alcohol, i swear, they have pictures.
First Job: paper route when i was in like 6th grade or something

9 Lasts:
Last Cigarette: dunno
Last Alcoholic beverage: a few hours ago
Last Car Ride: to smallz's house with val, stacy and corey
Last Movie Seen in theaters: Saw 2
Last Phone Call: James
Last thing you said: "you too"
Last CD Played: slipknot- iowa
Last bubble bath: months ago, never have time
Last time you cried: a few hours ago

8 Have You Evers:
Have You Ever Been Out Side The Country: yeah, canada
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: no
Have You Ever Been Arrested: more than 3 times
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: not since i was little
Have You Ever Been on TV: not that i know of
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Then Regretted It: yes
Have you ever cheated: yes, and i regret it horribly
Have you ever Sky Dived: no

7 songs that define moments in your life
1. Taproot- Lost in the woods
2. Papa roach- Broken home
3. The who- Teenage Wasteland
4. Cold- Wasted years
5. Professional murder music- Sleep deprivation
6. Lynyrd skynyrd- Free bird
7. Crossfade- Cold

6 Things You've Done Today:
1. went to school (4th hour)
2. hungout with val and lauren
3. went to smallz's party
4. got drunk
5. ran around with James and Amber
6. walked home alone at 1:30am in the cold

5. Things you ate today:
1. apple pie
2. laffy taffy
3. chicken
4. -
5. -

4 People You Can Tell [ALMOST] Anything to:
1. Val
2. Chris
3. James
4. Jon

3 Choices:
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: hot
3. Sun or Rain: rain

2 Things You Want to Do Before you die:
1. have someone love me unconditionally
2. be a mom

1 thing you regret: ever doing drugs.

ahh the glory

2005-11-07T10:14:53Z

today was interesting. had a soccer game at 2. ended up getting really pissed off. i walked off the field and yelled at my coach. and then i went with chris and jon. smoked out of the new bong. oh man, i love it. came home and then went to the hospital. i ended up having somewhat of a broken foot. ha ha. stupid soccer and falling nonsense. so now i have a neat orange wrist band. then i watched surviving christmas. around 4am chris came over. we chilled outside for a half hour and smoked. it was cold. and now its past 5am and i'm listening to some awesome mix of music. little bit of rap and then some Pink Floyd and other various 70's rock. very nice. well i'm gonna finish talking to chris and then ill probably go pass out somewhere. goodnight.

godsaidnoto_tom @ 2005-11-05T05:51:00

2005-11-05T10:52:48Z

I think it's time for a little c h a n g e. Jeannie's world is over now. A new beginning. A happy ending?

godsaidnoto_tom @ 2005-11-04T01:27:00

2005-11-04T06:27:53Z

i was high as fuck tonight.

i wanna skate. and play soccer. haha. i love playing soccer. i need to start skaing again. that would be sweet.

time to go passout.

godsaidnoto_tom @ 2005-11-01T00:02:00

2005-11-01T05:19:32Z

last night i went and chilled with Joel and got really stoned. and then i was over at chris's house chillin with him and jon. we got bored at 2am, so we went out smashing pumpkins. it was fun as hell. we got about 20 of them bitches. but then some asshole called the cops on us. we got to my house and were chillin in front and the cops showed up. they knew that we were smashin pumpkins and made us go and clean it all up. that kinda sucked. chris flicked off one of the cops so they got pissed and decided to take things a little further. chris is gone now and i feel like its all my fault. i dunno what to do now. my dad was socializing with the cops it was weird. he yelled at me and shit. gay.

so i got woken up at 3pm today and was told to go to work. so i worked and val and corey came up. it was sweet. val looked fuckin awesome. im sad that i didnt get to be connor lark for scene-o-ween. so i got home and was told that im grounded. i guess im an immature failure now. what else is new? but Amber stopped by and it made me happy and sad at the same time. then i went and got stoned so everything was okay. but i missed Joels party. that sucks. hmm i guess ill go now bye.